Iain’s Blog

I write after attending the ‘England my England’ fund raiser in the hut last night, which was very interesting and reminded me how lucky we are to live in such a green and pleasant land (unless you don’t recycle properly of course).

It was nice to see a mix of the community’s younger members and older members together. They got me up to, to talk about my experiences of being a Police Dog handler, which seems like yesterday in some ways but in others a whole lifetime ago. I dedicate the talk to Keran of course but to all the troops who aren’t with their families and are serving their country.

Hopefully Gerry Hanson (England My England) and myself will go on a tour of UK dates shortly and I can pay the mortgage off! Or even just pay for the next Petrol bill!

Thanks to DJ James for my sound effects and music, Jamie for the power point pictures, the ladies in the kitchen, the booksellers, and of course the audience, for turning up and donating. I hope you enjoyed it, I could have gone on and it was lucky the fire alarm went off when it did….we never did seem to have a fire though! Surely it wasn’t a ploy to make sure I got off…….nawh……….

The fact England is actually a Green and pleasant land, was reinforced today as I travelled up to Birmingham to speak at the Spring conference of FACT (Falsely Accused Carers & Teachers) association. The view from the train window was beautiful, sat onboard the rather sleek Virgin Pendolino train the world whizzed by, the view ever changing.

As the train tilted through the bends though (don’t worry its meant to), I kept thinking you should stick your hands in the air a’la ‘Rollercoaster’ rides and let out a whoop and a holler! But then it was too smooth to be a rollercoaster and there’s a good chance I would have been sectioned under the Mental Health Act on getting off the train…I know …. I know….I need more excitement in my life…maybe when we get a retrial…..

But back to gazing out the window, I had to envy those on board the narrow boats slowly plodding along the Grand Union canal. What a great way to travel, as long as you don’t have to be anywhere quickly of course!

But Birmingham and the FACT conference beckoned, so I sadly couldn’t take the slow boat route. It was very nice to meet the FACT team there after so long of just phone calls and e-mails. They allowed me plenty of time to go through the nightmare and at the end there was chance for questions from the floor (to be fair I think we should take more from the ceilings they have rights too). We then broke for lunch, so many of the delegates found time came over to chat (thanks to Gail for making sure I got fed).

It is heart-warming to meet others who have suffered False Accusations (as bizarre as that sounds), as you can feel very alone at times as I have mentioned before. But we are not alone there are many people out there, you are never alone, you may just feel that way. The more work done by groups to raise the issue the better, get along to them if you can and talk or write things down, get it off your chest.

No one there condones abuse of course, but no one should condone false accusations either. Maybe we need to look at charging people with an offence, with the 3000 new laws brought in one of them must cover it?!

Other areas came out that sounded all too familiar to, one delegate spoke of how many ex pupils had offered to speak up for them, including many who were now Police Officers. Those from the force area (involved in the case) weren’t allowed to speak out, another who had spread their wings further a field (in a different Police Force) did.

We could have asked more Police Colleagues, friends and associates to vouch for Keran. but I knew there wouldn’t be much point as they would either not be able to, or if they did their force, or supervisors or those in the case would always have them marked down and their careers would go nowhere, they would have to measure recycling bins or something….

It’s odd too that in Sue Holdsworth’s case, the officer spoke out but was ‘offered’ medical retirement and she was no friend or associate of Sue Holdsworth’s, just someone who thought something was wrong. I see no reason why Police Officers shouldn’t be allowed to stand up and be counted in the name of justice it should be mandatory!

There were many other areas the delegates had gone through the sort of things we had gone through and still are. When you don’t think you can be more humbled, someone comes along and thanks you for being an inspiration to keep fighting.

That is something I have to say I cannot claim credit for, as its not down to me, but to all our family, friends, the Carers team and those of you that attend the events and send things through and call, e-mail, write, carry out research, look after the kids for me (including meals), offer to help shop, clean, cut hair, make up curtains, repair things! Whatever!! To all of you, thank you again it is you that are the inspiration to these people, it’s not me, its all of you.
You are the inspirations, hats off to you and God bless.

Had a bit of a twist to the tale when speaking to the insurance company the other day, they asked if anyone in the house had been arrested and charged in the last 5 years. So I had to tell them about Keran, it caught me off guard and I felt really sorry for the lady on the other end, she may have got the odd ‘Yeah I have actually.’ But not many hopefully were I felt I had to explain your wife was wrongly arrested, charged and convicted’ all on the say so of medical mercenaries! Resulting in her name being tarred as someone capable of manslaughter of a little child.

Its surprising when all this pops up and I am sure Ruth & Mark must also suffer from the loss of Maeve at times when they least expect it. I know speaking to someone recently they often say there’s ‘x’ amount of them in their family, when sadly there isn’t as they are short of their father/grandfather, who sadly passed away. But still they count their father only to have to stop themselves, moments later, when they remember he is no longer there.

Count your blessings and not your misfortunes, you may be surprised at what you have.

Iain
Stay safe &
Fiat Justicia

P.S.

If anyone would like a talk on Police Dog handling, or me getting an Oscar, or my part in the Iranian Embassy Siege (only kidding - just making sure your still reading). Let my agent know, Max Clifford, sorry, no, Jamie wants to do it…he’s only 9 but a hard task master! He’s splitting the profits between him and Cameron….hang on what do i get out of this?

Pesky kids…..I’d have gotten away with it…….

Sometimes you wonder what to write in the absence of news from the Court of appeal, well today its what not to mention!

Firstly I wonder if the Government won’t help us out of the financial hole we are in with the loss of Keran’s wage. I don’t need 50 Billion Quid…it would be nice, but that’s all gone to the bankers who will help us the home owners, no sorry it looks like they won’t! Funny how none of them are brave enough to be interviewed as to why they won’t either.

But I reckon when they still make their huge profits, they will pass them on to us the homeowners (well you can live in hope…not a house…but hope).

Sad news that the Mum who was caring for her 22 year old son was found dead today, her son as I write is still missing. Lets hope he is found safe and well. It is annoying me now that there is not a hell of a lot of support for carers out there. Just makes me want to do more. I did see there was a helpline called Carers Careline, it looks like there are carers out there.

Another lady of note is the Mrs Newlove who lost her husband after he was attacked by ‘yobs’ last year. She fights to stop this happening again. We as a society need to do more, the Police can only do so much, its our society, a lot of guardians of good manners and behaviour have been taken away, from Bus conductors to Park Keepers. Even the old Cinema ‘Field Marshals’ in their smart uniforms, who used to keep ‘good order’ have all gone (I of course don’t remember these characters I have seen them in old Ealing and Boulting Brothers Films…shown recently of course)!

The Police are called upon to deal with things that in days gone by the public or others would have dealt with. Broken families and lack of Broken Windows policies all have roles to play amongst many other things. Cotton Wool kids not allowed out, so some play video games and watch films that show gore at every opportunity (my God I have become Mary Whitehouse). Remember when you got scared by the Daleks and a rubber shark (Jaws), it was the imagination that provided the shocks, now we don’t even have to use our imaginations.

Anyway I go on too much, there are small officials out there doing there bit…to give people criminal records for having their bin over full….

I am still in East Germany aren’t I?

What the….no wonder the prisons are full…….

Onto issues a bit closer to home now though, I see Professor Southall, he who thinks he knows best by the sounds of it. Well, he has won an appeal to get reinstated…..hmmm can’t say I am surprised though. The same was done for Meadows.

Great job that, you can pretty much do what you like, covertly film people, even in the Police and Forces we had rules about surveillance and covert stuff was always very dodgy ground. Nowadays though EVERYONE can do surveillance for important stuff….hang on….sorry just had to empty the paper recycling box there was a bush outside with a camera and a log book….where was I….yeap that was it any body can now do surveillance tap your phone, check your e-mail’s follow you around.

If only these terrorists wouldn’t recycle then we would have em!

Southall also got up to various other things, my fav, was watching Steve Clark (Sally’s husband) on TV, then ringing the Police and saying apparently ‘it wasn’t Sally it was him.’ The Police then did their thing, what that family went through and have suffered since is truly disgusting and Southall had a part to play in that. Some people would have been done for wasting Police time!

Another thing I like when reading articles about this is how they say if you have a go at us we will take our ball in and stop doing work to protect children and then what will happen. The guilt trip is a cheap shot, nobody in their right mind would condone hurting children and there is a new body to help vet people working with kids and vulnerable adults, the ISA, they will be a single point of contact for the process, working with the likes of the CRB and Police.

So there are others out there including MP’s, the public, parents and carers who do look out for children (don’t forget the childminder reported Victoria Climbie’s aunt). I have done my bit to protect Doctors and nurses we sued to escort them at times (air ambulance crews mainly) and stay with them when they had violent patients.

But I would find it hard to defend experts like these who want us to believe they know best, without much real proof. I was interested to see one expert in our case has sat on the GMC’s panel when reviewing others…not sure it fills me with a lot of confidence, but the GMC does act at times, the courts seem to reinstate them though? Maybe its time all this changed. Some Doctors who caused much chaos, still suffered to this date in the child sex abuse cases of years back are still working. Who pays apart from the families, some of whom are only now seeing their children who were taken away from them…

Maybe they need to step back and reflect, maybe they are lost in the woods and forgot they were looking for trees?

But better news comes in the form of Sue Holdsworth’s appeal starting today, after meeting her partner and her daughter at Christmas, I wish them all the best and hope that justice finds them soon, it has been over 3 years now since she was taken away. Little Kyle the child she was accused of killing was clearly a sickly child even to the naked eye when you see the pictures and the investigation was not as thorough as it could have been.

One Officer left, I can imagine what went on, but she has stood up to be counted and I hope she finds it as liberating as I do, to speak out against injustice. She mentioned the job being about what you can disprove as well as prove, maybe that’s something that the target culture doesn’t like. She also said how colleagues may have found her irksome, injustice or irksome…come on chaps……….what’s worse?

Everyone can get things wrong the Government, the Police, the experts, you, me, everyone. I have got it wrong numerous times, I trusted that this would all have been cleared up ages ago, that the jury would see through the ‘opinions’, I also bought a top once that was down right awful……but that’s another story. But seriously, when they realise it is wrong they should sort it out a damn sight quicker……..

Meanwhile we still wait to hear.

Did discover what I suspected though a while back, the two QC’s (defence and prosecution) where from the same chambers, which is legitimate, but it did leave me wondering. That’s the trouble with being a copper for so long, suspicious minds about everything. Also discovered few other things of interest, but they can wait (my one fingered typing is taking its toll).

Keep you family close and you recycling squashed down tight!

Iain

p.s.

Food or Fuel? Interesting story about the world food shortage too, there was a meeting at No.10 I wonder how much of the buffet got thrown away afterwards?

It was sad when I was still in the old bill lots of supermarkets and the like would give away food at the end of the day to the homeless, they can’t do it anymore, Health & Safety, etc (or some such thing).

Nearly as sad as watching the Ex Forces and Homeless show after the news, veterans sleeping rough I have seen at first hand and not just British troops either. Sad there wasn’t much mention of the British Legion, SSAFA, RAFA and the rest. But it made me glad I still have a roof over my head.

Fiat Justicia

Another blog from me to put up with! Mind you if you want the short version, the butler did it (….well it certainly wasn’t Keran).

Myself and the boys have just returned from another visit to see Keran, this time coming along was our sister in law, with the latest addition to the clan. Unfortunately my brother and the other two nephews weren’t feeling too good. I must confess to feeling sick every time I think of a certain miscarriage.

It was great as our latest nephew is a real charmer and to see Keran doing what she does best was great, if painful at times, as you only had to look at the visitors room around us to remember where we actually where. She wasn’t free to take him and play or feed him etc. It was quite an emotional visit.

The court of appeal are still researching the grounds and consulting with all they need to, so hopefully not too much longer. We have now crossed the 5 month mark believe it or not. So not long to go before she will have served half her sentence! But every day is a day we can’t give back to our boys.

Jamie has been suffering with a cold at the mo, which he is kindly sharing with me now, but better than any medicine he could have, would be to have a cuddle or two from his mum.

How our boys coped with illness and an enforced absence from their mum has really impressed family and friends of late. But no kids should have to go through this, there should be more visits for kids in these situations as otherwise you could be storing up problems for the future if your not careful.

But then I ain’t an expert and what would I know?!

Anyway after the visit the next day we took our visitors to Windsor, which I hadn’t been to for a while, but it was nicer for that to see the changes that have taken place. But how weird it was I was playing the tour guide with guests, as I was usually on shift and missed the daytrips.

So that’s one good thing that comes out of no longer being in the Police! Mind you its good not getting up at half four for early shifts too! Talking of the Police I have had numerous colleagues, that should be ex colleagues I guess, get in touch recently. It was nice to catch up and see that they are keen on fighting an injustice too. But more of that another day.

I watched the Olympic flame being touted round India earlier and the Police presence seemed a bit more restrained than some coppers in the UK who were throwing themselves at protesters like lemmings leaping from cliffs. Its amazing what a symbol like the flame can cause. But it gave me a wry smile as I haven’t long since written about the reactions of the Persecution, at Stars and later on the power of a Yellow ribbon. Some symbols of course are so powerful they can change a hell of a lot……lets hope the ribbons mark an end to the use of mercenary medics and unproven theories.

As I sit and type Question Time is on, and the politicians from all parties are so good at not answering questions at times I nearly forgot what the question was….nearly. But the question I would put to them all at the moment would they support the abuse of children by the state they represent as in our case and a secondary question is do they believe in innocent until proven guilty as that is dead.

There would be others of course about paying witnesses to say what you want them to say and many, many more. I actually went into the audience for Question Time some time ago to find out why the Government was making Police Officers into Support Officers and getting rid of an entire Police Force. But I think they weren’t worried about that on that particular day…..maybe that day will come soon.

So many wrongs so little time……..

Anyway, must dash, injustice to fight, mercenaries to take on, if anyone reading has had dealings with these ‘experts’ in family or criminal courts please let me know who you had lined up against you, as it seems to be the same old same olds. Also got to dash to do some digging to do, and we aren’t talking allotments……

Iain

p.s.

Can’t believe it the Question Time crew have just moved onto the Old Bill and one of them mentions its an important fact in this country we believe in innocent until proven guilty…must write to them to say its long gone…….

Fiat Justicia

Hi again,

Another thing I meant to say on my last blog was, when we walk away from the prison after a visit, I see Keran at the window (the visitors centre overlooks the exit point) waving frantically for it will be the last contact with her children and myself for however long.

I wish the experts could be here and look me and the boys in the eye and say they would stake their lives on their opinions. The experts should see what damage they do. It should be a mandatory part of their training, no one wants child abusers but neither should they send the innocents to HMP’s.

Some think that prison is a soft touch, well maybe there is a reality TV programme in that argument (its my idea so get off), not to be able to go out when you want, eat when you want, call when you want, not have to be searched routinely, tested for drugs. (When you have never touched any) Well let those that think it is easy put their money were their mouth is. Some prisoners may find it easy and homely, because they know nothing else? Who knows? But walk in their shoes before shouting off your tongues…

Another thing I wanted to add, was this song it’s a classic and just look at the lyrics or better still listen to it,

Something Inside So Strong
by Labi Siffre

The higher you build your barriers
The taller I become
The farther you take my rights away
The faster I will run
You can deny me
You can decide to turn your face away
No matter, cos there’s….

Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong

The more you refuse to hear my voice
The louder I will sing
You hide behind walls of Jericho
Your lies will come tumbling
Deny my place in time
You squander wealth that’s mine
My light will shine so brightly
It will blind you
Cos there’s……

Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong

Brothers and sisters
When they insist we’re just not good enough
When we know better
Just look ‘em in the eyes and say
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway

Something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong

Brothers and sisters
When they insist we’re just good not enough
When we know better
Just look ‘em in the eyes and say
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway

Because there’s something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong

Because there’s something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong

I feel at times others who have suffered this fate of being wrongly convicted who haven’t been totally destroyed by it have sometimes and understandably so, pulled away from fighting injustice, just glad its over for them.

Well, I can truly understand it, but I tho’ they been doing me wrong (and Keran and my boys obviously), the pride has not gone and no matter what experts they bring out I will with those that stand beside us destroy their carved images of a theory. I have just got up to the CPS’s closing speech and its bizarre what they say at times.

They say that Keran ‘is such a good character’….wait for it….here it comes….’but can we believe it’….I would sparky, as we had Head teachers, Vicar, Nurses, Solicitors, Mums and Dads of kids Keran looked after say she is, so it’s hardly guess work! They also say they are not looking at the other incidents Maeve sadly collapsed, but then do, mind you they don’t mention the one I was there much, actually at all a copper, who helped revive Maeve, damn it, it doesn’t help our case so we won’t mention it…funny that. The truth the whole truth and nothing like the truth. They would rather buy into the experts they paid, as they can control that, and not all those that trust Keran with their kids and the fact there is no evidence……hmmm

There is so much funny stuff going on you would think it is a comedy review, but it’s not a laughing matter a little girl died and an Innocent woman is in prison.

The CPS also mentioned that there are other people who don’t believe it (other people they called), but they said they weren’t experienced enough…so how did the others get it (experience) then? Enough to say they think that’s what happened, they can’t say hand on heart, because they haven’t proven it or have no heart? We await further info…

As I sit and go through my diary/journal it brings so much back, that just doesn’t add up…I wish I had done the defence at times. I would like to see these people face to face…..but then I WILL, they will all have to come back to the retrial…….excellent. Shame it will cost us the taxpayer more, maybe they will do discount as they have already done work for the CPS. In most cases they have only ever done work for the CPS.

They said they weren’t gunning for Keran, but then why act like hired guns? The prosecutor said we have done a belts and braces job…shame they forgot the bleeding obvious, the trousers!

I sat there transcribing for my book, and asking myself as I have so many times ‘why can they use SBS, when it has never been proven’, that alone should be reasonable doubt surely….and therefore should never get to court, unless there is other ‘real’ evidence….you know witness statements etc. But I have said it before, it’s like I will wake up any second.

Hopefully we will see soon, after the case we must all demand a Public enquiry into the abuse by the state on my two children and my wife, the abuse of the public purse, why double up on experts (twice as much cash to payout), why pay at all (apart form costs), what happened to the good citizen, why there are so many issues. Too many for now…

There are recommendations to make about how to protect genuine non mercenary medics, how to help Social Workers, the Police, improving Ofsted and the National Childminding Association (still not heard back from them yet) , etc.

Mind you the National Childminding Association are not the only ones I wait to hear back from, not heard back from the Probation Service about their policies on photos and kids visiting, also the Ministry of Justice, who sent a lovely letter saying how things are much better by Keran moving prison for the family (remember from lots of visits to not so many, way less than half……way less). Maybe they are checking up with Bronzefield to see if there was some misunderstanding? Maybe the bosses there didn’t know the differences?

I hope to hear from them soon, as I am sure all being professional bodies they have a set time to respond to correspondence ….or maybe not. We will see.

Maybe they think I have forgotten…….I know I am not quite with it at the mo, but not going to forget (or forgive either in most cases). They all have to change and you can all help demand it.

I have always protected the public in most of my working career, and I will continue to do so. I didn’t chose the battlefield or indeed the fight, but the more I read the diary of what did and didn’t go on in that court, the more there is ’something inside so strong’ and it has to be used to fight. Talking of songs Edwin Starr, I think it was once asked ‘War what is it good for’? Well, in this case ‘change’ hopefully, wars usually change the world, lets hope all this pain and suffering brings that change.

Finally many things in life can inspire you, I have mentioned music mainly tonight, my next song will be the Birdy Song, or anything by Mr Blobby……now that shows you how quickly your life can be ruined…no offence Mr B.

Stay safe

Iain
FJ