Wednesday 9th April 2008
Hi again,
Another thing I meant to say on my last blog was, when we walk away from the prison after a visit, I see Keran at the window (the visitors centre overlooks the exit point) waving frantically for it will be the last contact with her children and myself for however long.
I wish the experts could be here and look me and the boys in the eye and say they would stake their lives on their opinions. The experts should see what damage they do. It should be a mandatory part of their training, no one wants child abusers but neither should they send the innocents to HMP’s.
Some think that prison is a soft touch, well maybe there is a reality TV programme in that argument (its my idea so get off), not to be able to go out when you want, eat when you want, call when you want, not have to be searched routinely, tested for drugs. (When you have never touched any) Well let those that think it is easy put their money were their mouth is. Some prisoners may find it easy and homely, because they know nothing else? Who knows? But walk in their shoes before shouting off your tongues…
Another thing I wanted to add, was this song it’s a classic and just look at the lyrics or better still listen to it,
Something Inside So Strong
by Labi Siffre
The higher you build your barriers
The taller I become
The farther you take my rights away
The faster I will run
You can deny me
You can decide to turn your face away
No matter, cos there’s….
Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
The more you refuse to hear my voice
The louder I will sing
You hide behind walls of Jericho
Your lies will come tumbling
Deny my place in time
You squander wealth that’s mine
My light will shine so brightly
It will blind you
Cos there’s……
Something inside so strong
I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Brothers and sisters
When they insist we’re just not good enough
When we know better
Just look ‘em in the eyes and say
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
Something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me wrong, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Brothers and sisters
When they insist we’re just good not enough
When we know better
Just look ‘em in the eyes and say
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
I’m gonna do it anyway
Because there’s something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
Because there’s something inside so strong
And I know that I can make it
Tho’ you’re doing me, so wrong
You thought that my pride was gone
Oh no, something inside so strong
Oh oh oh oh oh something inside so strong
I feel at times others who have suffered this fate of being wrongly convicted who haven’t been totally destroyed by it have sometimes and understandably so, pulled away from fighting injustice, just glad its over for them.
Well, I can truly understand it, but I tho’ they been doing me wrong (and Keran and my boys obviously), the pride has not gone and no matter what experts they bring out I will with those that stand beside us destroy their carved images of a theory. I have just got up to the CPS’s closing speech and its bizarre what they say at times.
They say that Keran ‘is such a good character’….wait for it….here it comes….’but can we believe it’….I would sparky, as we had Head teachers, Vicar, Nurses, Solicitors, Mums and Dads of kids Keran looked after say she is, so it’s hardly guess work! They also say they are not looking at the other incidents Maeve sadly collapsed, but then do, mind you they don’t mention the one I was there much, actually at all a copper, who helped revive Maeve, damn it, it doesn’t help our case so we won’t mention it…funny that. The truth the whole truth and nothing like the truth. They would rather buy into the experts they paid, as they can control that, and not all those that trust Keran with their kids and the fact there is no evidence……hmmm
There is so much funny stuff going on you would think it is a comedy review, but it’s not a laughing matter a little girl died and an Innocent woman is in prison.
The CPS also mentioned that there are other people who don’t believe it (other people they called), but they said they weren’t experienced enough…so how did the others get it (experience) then? Enough to say they think that’s what happened, they can’t say hand on heart, because they haven’t proven it or have no heart? We await further info…
As I sit and go through my diary/journal it brings so much back, that just doesn’t add up…I wish I had done the defence at times. I would like to see these people face to face…..but then I WILL, they will all have to come back to the retrial…….excellent. Shame it will cost us the taxpayer more, maybe they will do discount as they have already done work for the CPS. In most cases they have only ever done work for the CPS.
They said they weren’t gunning for Keran, but then why act like hired guns? The prosecutor said we have done a belts and braces job…shame they forgot the bleeding obvious, the trousers!
I sat there transcribing for my book, and asking myself as I have so many times ‘why can they use SBS, when it has never been proven’, that alone should be reasonable doubt surely….and therefore should never get to court, unless there is other ‘real’ evidence….you know witness statements etc. But I have said it before, it’s like I will wake up any second.
Hopefully we will see soon, after the case we must all demand a Public enquiry into the abuse by the state on my two children and my wife, the abuse of the public purse, why double up on experts (twice as much cash to payout), why pay at all (apart form costs), what happened to the good citizen, why there are so many issues. Too many for now…
There are recommendations to make about how to protect genuine non mercenary medics, how to help Social Workers, the Police, improving Ofsted and the National Childminding Association (still not heard back from them yet) , etc.
Mind you the National Childminding Association are not the only ones I wait to hear back from, not heard back from the Probation Service about their policies on photos and kids visiting, also the Ministry of Justice, who sent a lovely letter saying how things are much better by Keran moving prison for the family (remember from lots of visits to not so many, way less than half……way less). Maybe they are checking up with Bronzefield to see if there was some misunderstanding? Maybe the bosses there didn’t know the differences?
I hope to hear from them soon, as I am sure all being professional bodies they have a set time to respond to correspondence ….or maybe not. We will see.
Maybe they think I have forgotten…….I know I am not quite with it at the mo, but not going to forget (or forgive either in most cases). They all have to change and you can all help demand it.
I have always protected the public in most of my working career, and I will continue to do so. I didn’t chose the battlefield or indeed the fight, but the more I read the diary of what did and didn’t go on in that court, the more there is ’something inside so strong’ and it has to be used to fight. Talking of songs Edwin Starr, I think it was once asked ‘War what is it good for’? Well, in this case ‘change’ hopefully, wars usually change the world, lets hope all this pain and suffering brings that change.
Finally many things in life can inspire you, I have mentioned music mainly tonight, my next song will be the Birdy Song, or anything by Mr Blobby……now that shows you how quickly your life can be ruined…no offence Mr B.
Stay safe
Iain
FJ